This is the first time I'm making an entry about myself. All the previous posts had been dedicated to kpop.
Since evryone is still in New Year mode, I think it is appropriate to talk about new year's resolution. But I think mine is more to a long-life resolution. ^^
Growing up with an ambition to be a doctor, and maturing as a teenager makes me forgot my ambition and focused to something I found enjoyable which is English and foreign language.
I went to a science school. In the science school everyone (almost) have ambitions that related to sciences. you name it. Doctor, physicians, engineer etc. So I felt it was better to have a dream of becoming a doctor. I was doing so well in the lower form. When I was in the upper form, my grades started to drop. And I did really moderately in my SPM. Although some of my friends (not my schoolmates) said that my result is ok. But look, if you're in a science school and scored B3 for sciences subjects, it really is not cool. Despite that, I got A1 in all non-science subjects. Wait, I got A1 for my modern maths.
Then I entered Matriculation College. Again in science stream. I found Maths is exceptionally hard. I was doing okay in Chemistry and moderately in Biology. That time, I started to neglect my once dream of becoming doctor. Day after day, I became so confused and at times I can say that I was a little depressed because I don't have goal in my life especially during the second (which is last) semester. I couldn't decide what I wanted to be. A part of me told me that I no longer have this desire to be a doctor or other science-related jobs. While another part of me said that I shouldn't give up for my parents. My parents never aid that they wanted me to become a doctor. It was me who make them believe that I wanted to be a doctor. There was a little hope that they put on me. Some other parts of me were asking me, then what is my goal? What is my passion? What is my dream?
